Accident

Productive, connected, creative and rested.

Productive, connected, creative and rested. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Productive, connected, creative and rested. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

Somehow, I have the space this week to feel like I will be able to be productive, connected, creative and rested.

Thing is I’m not quite sure how all this turned out.

I know it is a result of decisions I have made…could every week be like this?

Or is it just an anomaly? Or can this happen every few weeks?

I’m going to stop thinking about and just kick back and enjoy it.

Love

Luke

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The ugliest sock.

The ugliest sock. Drawing Luke Hockley.

The ugliest sock. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

I think I may have knitted the ugliest sock ever.

It just looks all wrong.

I don’t know what I did.

It is the least satisfying thing I have ever made.

I just don’t seem to be able to find a sock pattern for my foot size that doesn't look terrible.

And one sock took up the wool that two socks should have taken.

So, now I have one almost finished sock that is completely useless.

For some reason I kind of love it.

It is a failure.

I spent hours and hours knitting it.

Miss-shaped and ugly.

Impractical. Useless.

But I made it anyhow.

Love.

Luke

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No, that’s not it.

No, that’s not it. Drawing Luke Hockley.

No, that’s not it. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

No.

No! No, that’s not it.

That’s not how I imagined it.

Not what I was thinking when I made it.

Damn. Now that feels like it’s broken.

I pictured a lot of different things…but I didn’t picture that!

That’s not its shape…not the shape it is meant to be.

What do I do now?

Is it broken?

Or is it just different.

Am I meant to throw the pieces out?

Or pick them up and make with them?

Did it even break.

Or is this the shape it always was? Is this perfect?

Or almost perfect?

Does it just need a little tweak and its exactly right?

This is not how I imagined it at all.

Not at all.

Luke.

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As I fall.

As I fall. Drawing Luke Hockley.

As I fall. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

I am a bubbling brook of excitement.

I am a tight rope walker.

I am a playful puppy dog learning how to fetch.

I am a toddler learning how to walk.

I am a teenager playing Marco Polo in the swimming pool.

I am an adult playing the drinking game - spoons.

I am building my parachute as I fall.

I am uncertain about how it will all look.

I am ready to be caught by all my friends.

I am.

Luke

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The risks of losing a needle.

The risks of losing a needle. Drawing Luke Hockley.

The risks of losing a needle. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

I was just sitting in bed sewing a buttonhole on my handmade shirt when I accidently lost the needle.

My endless jar of honey hates it when I drop a pin or lose a needle.

This is understandable.

If you have ever sat on a pin or inadvertently stuck a needle into your finger, then you know that even though it is very unlikely to be fatal it is a very unpleasant experience.

Losing the needle in the bed is pretty high on the list of unacceptable places to lose a sharp metal object.

Here’s the thing.

Hand sewing a shirt involves taking risks.

Most of those risks are extremely imaginary.

“What if I sew the buttonhole crooked? What if the arms to fit neatly into the sleeve head? What if I choose a colour of thread that doesn't look right? What if my stitching is all wonky and the shirt falls apart?”

Who cares?

The point is to hand sew a shirt. If all those things happen it will be completely awesome. All of that will have been the point. If I wanted a perfect shirt with no risks, then I could have bought one from a shop and kept the receipt.

What I wanted was the opportunity to make something. Something imperfect and human.

It’s funny though. At the moment when I am deciding to sew the button on the shirt I notice myself avoiding taking the risk of getting wrong. Even though I know that anything I do will be perfect. I hold off. Worried that I will muck it up. Then I tell myself “Muck it up!”. I remind myself that any imperfection is going to make this shirt into a more accurate reflection of the flawed but loveable human that I hope to be. And I get sewing.

Losing a pin or a needle raises the stakes for me and the people around me. This thing could hurt, not badly, but enough to make you sit up and pay attention.

It’s risky hand sewing a shirt.

It's a risk I’m willing to take.

I hope the people around me are ok with that.

Love

Luke.

Ps: I found the needle, and every pin I have dropped so far. My endless jar of honey is safe for another day.

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This page is broken.

This page is broken. Drawing Luke Hockley.

This page is broken. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

Imperfection is an interesting conundrum.

The pursuit of making something by hand that looks perfect…but then is made all the more perfect by the imperfection that the hands leave when attempting the impossible task of making something by hand, perfectly.

I’m really enjoying embracing the imperfection of making things by hand.

Love

Luke.

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Precious life.

Precious life. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Precious life. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

Lifting.

Beyond today.

Now. Now. Now.

Then gone.

Precious. Floating.

Joyful sadness.

Release. Grief.

Kindness.

Precious waiting.

Precious life.

Love

Luke

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