Dear Self

Just outside my reach.

Just outside my reach. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Just outside my reach. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

Something is going on that is just outside my reach.

I feel sad. I feel totally fine. I feel grateful for my life. I feel inspired by the choices I have. I feel overwhelmed by the choices I have. I feel uncertain. I feel unclear. I feel stuck. I feel weighted down. I feel worried. I feel in the middle. I feel surprisingly inspired by things that don’t usually inspire me. I feel confused.

Perhaps it is just ‘transition’ that I am experiencing?

But from what?

And to where?

When did it start? How far through it am I? When will it end?

All the answers are sitting ‘just there’…but I can’t quite grasp them.

I think I need to keep moving on anything I can keep moving on and then be patient.

That’s the best I’ve got.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,167

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Who knows.

Who knows. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Who knows. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

I don’t seem to be able to get to the place where I can write this letter with any clarity or deep sense of self reflection.

It’s a shame, because when I can find that place I always learn a lot about myself. I uncover something that’s in the way and am able to forge a new pathway forward.

And I could really do with that kind of clarity right now.

But it’s not there.

All I know is that giving up and not writing the letter is not the answer.

So, I write a letter.

It’s not profound or insightful, but it’s a letter.

Then I turn up again tomorrow and do the same again. And who knows, maybe I’ll find myself more able to see myself then.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,166

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Blah, blah.

Blah, blah. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Blah, blah. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

Blah blah blah blah.  

Blah. Blah blah blah, blah blah blah blah blah. 

Blah blah blah.  

Blah blah blah blah. Blah blah.  

Blah. Blah blah blah.  

Blah.

Love

Luke. 

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Day 1,165

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This place right here.

This place right here. Drawing Luke Hockley.

This place right here. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

I’ve been forgetting to live right here. 

Always looking to a different moment, a future time, when I’ll feel better. 

Which means I’m in the that place over there rather than this place right here.  

But I only ever get this place right here.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,164

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This is what I have to work with.

This is what I have to work with. Drawing Luke Hockley.

This is what I have to work with. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

I can’t stand my own shape at the moment.

I don’t quite know which shape I want, but this shape doesn’t seem to be working for me today.

But this is my shape.

This is who I am.

This is what I have to work with.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,163

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The light changes.

The light changes. Drawing Luke Hockley.

The light changes. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

The slightest shift and the light changes and suddenly things feel ok again.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,162

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Slow. Kind. Gentle.

Slow. Kind. Gentle. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Slow. Kind. Gentle. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

How is it possible for the things I know to evaporate so quickly?

How do I find myself back at square one, relearning the things I have already learnt?

Slow. Kind. Gentle.

That’s all I can say about it.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,161

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My mojo.

My mojo. Drawing Luke Hockley.

My mojo. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

If you happen to see my mojo lying around would you be able to send it my way?

Asap?

Thanks.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,160

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I’ve got this.

I’ve got this. Drawing Luke Hockley.

I’ve got this. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

Can I trust myself to know what to do?

It feels like the most important piece of the puzzle right now…where has this faith in my life knowledge gone?

I’d like to invite myself to bring this trust back into focus.

I’ve got this.

Love

Luke

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Day 1,159

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In my own way.

In my own way. Drawing Luke Hockley.

In my own way. Drawing Luke Hockley.

Dear Self,

I’m standing in my own way.

But because it’s me standing in the way I don't seem to be able to see clearly enough what I am standing in the way of in order to encourage myself to get out of the way.

I’m very frustrated by this.

But if I know I am standing in the way then I clearly know that something about the way I am approaching things is not as I would like it to be.

But what!?

What is it?!

Seriously, I want to know.

I wonder if I haven’t set the path I want to follow, the clarity of direction, and so I’m standing around not knowing if indeed I am standing facing the right direction or if I need to make a 180 turn.

Is that it?

Love

Luke

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Day 1,158

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