Every day it’s a negotiation.
“Is this it? Should I do more of this, or more of that? Am I getting things done here? Am I being useful? Am I being of service? Am I enjoying it? How much should I enjoy it? Am I spending enough time refilling the well? Am I too focused on myself? Am I selfish? Am I self-aware? Am I being kind to the people around me? Am I being kind to the world? Am I using my privilege to make things better? Am I being privileged and self-serving? Am I laughing enough? Am I participating in collective joy and generosity? Am I honest? Am I kind? Am I effective? Am I getting things done?”
It’s a negotiation that is often uncomfortable.
It’s a good negotiation, but I don’t think it should get too much energy from me. It needs a clear place and time…and then it needs to stop. It’s better to get moving on anything rather than spend all my time thinking about whether I am doing the perfect thing.
It’s a negotiation that is uncomfortable, necessary but it is also not the whole game.
It’s important to keep playing the whole game.
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