Now that I have decided that I am very happy with my life I have also decided to start worrying about whether it can go on like this or not.
When things are good I get this self-sabotaging thought pattern that starts to listen out for the other shoe to drop.
Something has to go wrong.
The house of cards has to fall down.
It couldn’t go on like this, could it?
And of course, it can’t. Things always change. And there will always be ups and downs that I have to manage. But worrying about something that hasn’t happened yet is just a way to take the fun out of the good times.
So, here is the thing.
What I like so much about my life at the moment is not any of the material things (although they are all lovely) it is the approach I seem to have cultivated and the people I have around me.
I can keep this approach no matter what challenges turn up. That is entirely within my control. And building relationships with good people is something I can focus on regardless of how much money or status or success I have.
Can it last? Of course, the answer is no – something is always going to change.
The real question is can I keep holding my life with kindness and humour and compassion, regardless of what else happens?
Sure, I can give that a good crack.
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