I’m a bit confused.
The last week or so I have had very tight shoulders. This is quite unusual for me. But, for some reason, my shoulders have become like ropes. Very uncomfortable.
I don’t think there is one reason.
I dug some holes, that probably contributed.
I’ve been at the gym more than I was, I’m sure that played a part (but maybe not…)
I’ve been busy, very busy, busier than I like to be.
Yesterday something happened, and the tension started to drop away.
This was a huge relief. But also confusing. What happened?
I went to the gym and whilst I was warm I stretched out my back – so that helped. But, I think this was actually the key piece, I also got some of my creative projects moving again. And when I did I felt the weight lifted off my shoulders.
There is something important going on here. Something that seems counter intuitive.
When I don’t have a clear commitment to my next creative deadline then I fall in a hole. I act like I am giving myself a break…which obviously having some down time is needed, but if I am wavering on whether I should do this or that, or what the next move is, or whatever then I go into a kind of limbo that makes me feel like everything I am doing is a waste of time.
When I get a new project in place and I commit to delivering it, then the opposite happens. All the effort I am doing to make my life keep turning is worth it. Then I become productive again.
Strangely, at these times, I don’t need less to do I need more.
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