Each day when I sit and write this letter I am writing a letter to myself.
However, after I finish writing it I make the letter public.
The truth is these two things are a bit of a contradiction.
Firstly, I want to have an honest conversation with myself, I want to say whatever I need to hear today so that I can anchor my day in a way that is helpful to me.
Second, I want what I write to be engaging, poetic…I want it to be interesting to read so that people will want to read it.
So far, I have focused on writing as honestly and directly to myself as I can with the hope that this translates into something that is interesting to read because we rarely get to see this inner dialogue.
I can feel when I am cheating and trying to write for ‘the audience’ rather than for ‘myself’.
This is good…except, how do I improve the quality of my writing without becoming self-conscious and fake?
Perhaps I am craving the space to actually write more directly for an audience? Then I would feel more freedom to shape my writing for that audience.
I’ve just realised that I can write an engaging, entertaining, playful, insightful letter to myself. That it is ok for me to write the truth to myself in a way that is interesting for me to read. To refine my writing so that it is a more compelling letter to myself is not cheating as long as I am doing so to make it more engaging for me. The hope is that it becomes more engaging for any reader without becoming too contrived.
Oh, ok. I’ll try that for a while.
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