Am I strong enough?

Am I strong enough? Drawing by Luke Hockley

Am I strong enough? Drawing by Luke Hockley

Dear Self,

Sometimes I feel like I am not strong enough.

I live with my heart on my sleeve.

I do the things I do as audaciously as I can.

But I want to be liked. I want people to like the things I make. I want to be accepted…maybe more than is healthy for a person to want these things.

So, when someone doesn’t like something I do, when that person is important to me, when they tell me in a way that doesn’t quite match my specific needs for kid gloves at specific moments around the things I make, then I don’t feel strong enough to handle this.

I don’t know what to do.

I know everyone doesn’t have to like everything I do. It’s not a condition of my friendship that they do.

But I also know that this stuff hurts, it really hurts and I want to protect myself, to feel safe, to feel good about the things I am making.

I’d like to be strong enough to take whatever is thrown at me.

I’m just not sure that I am.

Love

Luke

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