I can do most anything if I understand why.
If I don’t understand why then I easily get lost. I become fatigued. I lose motivation. I am disengaged and unmotivated.
Sometimes I know why but I can’t put why into words. In fact in the beginning of new adventures that can often be the case…and that’s quite distressing for someone who wants to know why before they do anything. At these times I have to leap anyhow. Leaping into a new thing and working out why as I go is how I discover new lands. Otherwise I only do things I am used to doing.
There comes a point, after I’ve been out in the wilderness for a while, where I need to regroup and work out what all of the new things I am discovering mean and how those new things relate to what I am trying to get done in the world. Then the why that has been hiding there all along will often reveal itself.
Some days I am right on the money. I hit the right path and nailed the thing. Some days I don’t. The thing was nearly the thing but it was in the wrong order, or slightly off target in some way or not the thing at all.
Then it is time to recalibrate, reset the thing, build upon the accumulated knowledge and try again.
That’s where I am now.
At the start of the year I leapt out into this goal of creating a community around me who would support me to make things that make the world a better place.
I’ve done lots of experiments and now I know a bunch of stuff…and it is time to sort and discard and do the next push.
It all feels a bit overwhelming and scary…but right, so it’s time to suck it up and just get on with it.
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